Well,
last Tuesday I attended the believer never die tour in Lowell mass. It was a fucking amazing show I arrived there at 9am it was already 84 degree and went into the mid 90 degree. I met up with my friends who didn't show up till later that day. We all order pizza's and me being the pizza leader I fucking ran the hill attack the pizza guy before he was able to get out his vehicle. Around 4pm I got into the show with my friend who got early entry which was fucking fab and able to save some premiere seat. Which in the mix of thing ended becoming the seat patrol person for other people. However I ended up making new friends who are following me on twitter. For those I am now a twitter girl join my viva la revolution artistspin on twitter. I ended up having my photo taken with Vicki from Cobra starship and got a hand wave from gabe from cobra and pete from fall out boy which was fucking awesome. Sadly I didn't stay for the whole show but at least I got to see see FOB but will never replace harper ferry show November 8, 2008 to see them again.

To those whom I dated
I don't know what fuck I was thinking only reason I dated you because I like to fix broken things.
I thought we were friends when it ended or you were at least honest with me
Found out you were coward
I really don't have time for this anymore because I've been avoiding something which is me.
I have to go and do my thing
You may not like it
But I don't care
If you are looking for this pathetic person she is not here anymore
I deserve what everyone else have because I worked hard
I never gave up
When things got tough I kept going
So I suggest you go find somewhere and die

Okay,
well I've been busy working at BABW most of the time now so my timing is limited to come on here. My cousin is getting married in may and it's going look like the damn united nation since my dad side of the family is irish, german, hispanic, italian, asian, and soon brazilian. My uncle is going be dressing up as chairman mao.

I am excited one more month before the believer never die tour can't wait to see fall out boy, metro station, cobra starship, hey monday, and all time low at the tsongas arena it going be awesome show.

But in the mean time I hope to catch flogging molly next week and MSI so cross your fingers bitches later.

Oh damn starbucks
you are the devil choice that have fueled my coffee love
with your sweet selection and ton of choices of espresso
I don't think would get through a day without a cup of coffee
so fuck damn coffee

Yes this is smokey and lucky and no they are not boinking you damn dirty people.
Working in fanuiel hall during the off season can fucking suck but same time be nice because your not bother with the constant cry from people asking numerous dumb ass customer.

Plus riding the MBTA train become a lot more calmer because you don't have tourist hounding over you or their children being brats. Ex one time I was on my way home had a kid ran through the turn style, and left me unable to use my charlie card. I scolded at the child and demanded the parents give me the two dollars to pay for me getting through the turn style.

so good night children

Shit,
it has been a fucking while since I haven't updated this damn thing, well where to start.
Happy new year everyone, I did not do anything interesting for the new year I actually slept through the new year. Because I am dead fucking tired from working all holiday season and needed a siesta.

I am still single and have not found my prince charming yet, and since the economy suck i am still at BABW workshop for the meantime. But at least I am getting some hours and making some money at the moment.


Xmas was okay I got wii fitness and rockband for xmas which I both love very much. Sad part my grandfather had a cardiac arrest on xmas day, but he now transported back to the nursing home he currently living at. Sad part about the whole ordeal it really suck watching your love one's slowly die. Being the oldest and only child in my family I will have to step up to the plate when the time come.

A lot of shit has been going
I graduated from college yay me, I am currently in the market looking for a job. Still at Build a bear though I am looking for a new part time job. Due to the lack of hours I've been given at my job which really suck. I mean I've been there for two fucking years just because I messed up on one birthday party I get pushed down to the totem poll. Compared to the new people who been there less than I have and getting 18-20 hrs compared to me who is getting 10-12hr sometime just seven hours. What ever happened to fair democracy's.


Second I finally got to see Panic at the Disco performed live on top of that met the band. They are really awesome bunch of people who are so down to earth. I also enjoyed see Motion city Sound track perform.



Panic at the disco is an awesome band live
one my favorite songs were
Mad rabbit and That Green Gentlemen
Only thing I hated was it was near the weather and I ended up getting sick

I've been dating someone
but were taking it slow or I am
I guess just turning 28 I want a real relationship not jumping in too quickly. Because I am looking to get married and settle down. It has been a goal or a dream of mine and I want to fulfill. I know it's not a job. But as Charlotte from sex and city said"I've been dating since I was 15 where is he."

I saw Amanda Palmer last Friday performed with the Boston Pops
the women is fucking awesome live, loved her rendition of Ben fold brick with the Keith Lockhear t and Boston Orchestra performing in back of her while she sang the song.

Ladies and GentleMan
I've been extremely busy working at the build a bear recently which in truth have been getting on my nerve. I know it is a temporary job but often it make me want to cry, depress wondering what beyond the land of teddy bear, and angry.

In others news I've started dating again a nice gentlemen name Jody he lives in natick but I am moving on with my life and away from shawn who dumped me for his band,

I only got 5 and half week of school, then graduating in may 18,2008 the week before I am going to see Panic at the disco which I am extremly excited.




yeah this me at christmas

Oh yeah we've have a newest member of the family Lucky the cat, he's only a year and half old and liike to bother smokey
Smokey think he is a pain the ass but tolerate him

It's February
vacation again and you know what that means Disney on ice is in town and build a bear is booming with loud customers. Work has been over whelming lately because I spend a quarter of my time between work and school.

Today one my co-worker was asked to re-fill the cotton bin and while she was pulling out cotton from the closet. The cotton started to spread apart, and she screamed like she saw a dead body, a mouse, and etc. The patrons became scared and stood in one corner while everyone else was wondering what the hell happen. i guess she will not be filling up the cotton bin for a while.

Well,
first off I found out today my grandfather is slowly dying because I knew he had Parkinson in the past but lately his body been rejecting food. My uncle is going talk to the social worker Thursday to discuss the best plan of action. How is this affecting me well, I began crying today because it's hard to see a love one slowly die and being he's my last grandfather it make it extremely hard on me. I knew he been living in a nursing home for more than a several year now but this is like the final stage.

All around things are going be difficult because this is my last semester which i am determine to pass and get my college degree. I'm on the hunt to look for a job hopefully move out of the city. Now with this, My plate is full but well see how the months and day goes.

I am siked Panic at the disco is headlining the 2008 honda civic tours.
Also the band sophmore album is entitled pretty odd will be released March 25, 2008

I'M FUCKING 7 POINTS CLOSER TO GRADUATING COLLEGE NEXT MAY =), DANCE DANCE BEST FUCKING XMAS GIFT

What the fuck is up with the week before christmas,
   all the fucking weirdo come out of the tool shed and out on the prowl to hunt down the last minute holiday gift. For example, last night I got a phone call from a customer asking what time that we closed. I responded at 9pm, and he followed by with a complaint saying our automated answering service does not give the store hours. I tried to explain to him that we are in a market place, we must abide to following the marketplace rules.  Give me a fucking break arguing with me will not help the situation about an automated telephone service, why don't he call the corporate headquarter and complain hey your automated service does not give your store time.

   Second we don't have anymore fucking Ruldolph or Clarisse so stop fucking calling the store in hopes you will find one. Because I am sorry to announce when you wait till the last week of christmas it's one out of million shot the item you are looking for will be available. In addition hence the word "limited addition", plus you have a fucking month to snatch up the item before the christmas rush.

     Third customers stupidity is at all time high, because it is that all i can say

Anyway
my finals are over and it feels like winter finally because of the recent snow falls and christmas only being less than a week of half away. Plus I like the holidays because it's the only time people are nice to each other out of the 365 days of the year, without wanting to kill each other. Because out 365 days of year being with family, co-workers, and friends they have a tendency to get on your nerve and the holidays is like a middle man that put a halt to the whole mess.

I am siked this coming saturday I will be dressed up as bearmy making an appearance at the Hard rock cafe on clinton street, it's for a santa claus breakfast event.

I'm debating after I graduate from college next year of moving away from Boston my home town. Don't get me wrong Boston will always be number one. In order to pursue my dream and start a new chapter in my life it may be the right decsion to move out of Boston.  Also I became addicted watching a show on the cw network called gossip girl. I know sad but I actually like the girl, and think the actor who played chuck is so damn cute.

Oh yeah I was at Newbury Comic at goverment center a couple weeks ago, I was looking at calenders and saw one featuring red diva which I thought was excellent.  I can't believe Christmas is only four weeks away, at work we started selling Ruldoph the red nose reindeer and Clarise. Sadly, I am fucking sick of the Ruldoph song since that is the number one choice of children and buyers.  Well, hearing for 3 days straight you can't blame me.

Since shawn and I broke up I have been homebody, basically school and work nothing else.  Expect last july I took a bus to NYC slept outside of Rockerfella center ended up on the TODAY show to see fall out boy perform. Then in November I took the commuter rail to Lowell, Mass ti see them perform again.

So I am slowly getting back into dating, though my thearpist think I should get out since I am in slump.

It's kind of weird being back on live journal since my hiatus so I got a lot to fill you guy's in.

First Shawn and I broke up, well the reason was he left me for his alter ego and his band sad isn't it. I'm still working at Build a Bear workshop and finally graduating from college next may.

There has been an new addition to my family another cat his name is Lucky and he a pain in the ass sometimes. But I still love him. He was Shawn and I cat till we broke up. Shawn did not have the time to devote to taking care of Lucky so I took him back.

Anything else nope just been getting into emo music, love fall out boy, cobra star ship, and anything that I can scream jump around too.


I'll write more later

Okay bitches,
   I've decided to return to live journal after a long hiatus from the blogging world. I'll fill you in on what's been going on with me later. But I'm back yes yes I'm back.